dreams are for real

today

2006-07-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

Today is juz another dae... Another dae after the terms exam!!! haha... however i cannot be too happy n slack coz promos are like 10 WEEKS AWAY!!! wow... have to realli pull up my socks le... as high as possible... lol... this time i didn realli do very well... Buts its okie... i will strive 4 better results next time...

Todae we had the NE Dialogue... Its was quite boring n i wanted to sleep however with the discipline teacher looking... i decided not to n be a good student... Many stood up to ask question but i dun realli any question becoz i dun realli noe wat the person is talking abt... but can miss 4 period of gp... lol... after that normal lesson carried on... nth much happened todae... was juz a normal day... very normal... =)

After school i had CO... it was the first ever j1 combine... looking at the orchestra makes me a bit upsad becoz it looks small without the seniors and i kind of miss the days playing songs with the seniors... But they came back to help out...I feel happy seeing them =)... I didn realli play much becoz i have to practice guzheng with my seniors for the performance on friday... Performance... i scared of performing in front of ppl... haiz... i can't overcome my fear and in the end my performance turn out not as expected... Juz cant control myself... My hands will tremble... But i realli hope that the performance will turn out well... i also dun realli noe wat are we performing for... haha... juz noe have to perform... but i will still do my best =)

I think thats all for todae le... it was a very normal dae todae haha so i have not much to write abt... i will update soon...=)

2006-07-01T13:24:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was an interesting day for me!!! lol... In the morning, I had my chemistry paper... It was very tough that I think even getting double digit is hard for me... WHAT HAPPENED TO MY CHEMISTRY??? haiz... I think i have been slacking too much recently and didnt realli put in much effort for all my subs!!! all the tutorials not done, stoning during lectures and sleeping too much which cause such a result!!! lol... i have to wakeup soon... very soon!!! and i hope that i will be able to... haha... thenz in the afternoon, some of the Co ppl went to orchard swensens to celebrate Zi Hui's bdae... we waited quite long for the J2 ppl to come and so me, wei ling, zi hui and li ting went to have a walk at taka... had lots of fun!!! haha... we stayed at swensens frm like 2 to 7+... thenz after that some of us went to take neoprints!!! haha... had a great time yesterdae... =]

Many things has happened during my holidays... Firstly is the ACCO enCOre concert... i had lots of fun during the practices before the real thing... that is when i got to noe more about my seniors... they are a bunch of very very nice and fun ppl!!! i enjoyed the times spent with them... And there was also the co camp which bonded the CO closer together!!! i got to noe more ppl frm CO during the camp and i enjoyed myself a lot... However the camp was onli 2 days long and i think that it is kind of short... But the time spent with the CO members was very memorable!!! The practices for the concert was very tough... had practice for the whole dae, everyday for the whole week... At one point of time i realli couldnt take it but after much persistance, i felt much better and the concert ws here... I felt very nervous however, with much encouragement frm the CO members, i felt much better... The concert went on smoothly and it ended... I was feeling sad that the concert ended as my seniors are leaving but relieved that everything was over... I felt wierd for a week as there wasnt any practice... it felt as if sth was missing frm my life all of a sudden!!! miss all the ppl and the practices!!!

Time really flies but all the memories will always be kept in my heart always... Both sad and Happy times... =]...

wat a day!!!

2006-04-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

It has been a long long time since i blogged... Had been busy recently... actually not realli busy but lazy to blog... Lol... kind of miss a lot of ppl... the old 1sc7 ppl, my nhss gz members, pei qi n fel, 405 ppl, friends that are not wif me le... Lots of things happened in the past few mths... lol... kind of lazy to write all... =P

Yesterdae i did my project work... was brainstorming like mad... n slept at one... Hard to choose a topic... no ideas at all... Tired todae and have almost no energy to do anything...!!!! Dun feel like talking... Dun feel like eating, sleeping...... Haiz... bad dae for me... havn had a good sleep for weeks... haiz... this is realli jc life... very hectic!!! time is realli short now and i am kind of struggling my way through... some things i dun realli understand... very chim... lol...

i think i shall end my entry now... nth much to say and dun feel like saying anithing... lol... i will try to update my blog as soon as possible frm now onwards... =]

HappY nEw YeaR

2006-01-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

Yoz ppl... Sorrie 4 not updating my blog 4 soooooo long le... haha.. have to clear all the thick layer of dust n spider webs... haha... todae is already the second dae of the new year 2006... anticipating 4 a new life, new task... although excited but also scared... dun realli noe wat is ahead... but i noe that i should take it easy... sometimes i realli wonder wat have i been through n i found out that y life is like a routine... continues on and on again... nothing interesting happen yet... hope that in 2006 i might have a more intersting life...

the last dae of 2005 was spent wif some of my classmate... we went to play pool at first
was realli funnie... i missed the ball a lot of times... haha... laughed a lot that time... thenz kakeru, koon hui, fel n mi went 4 bowling... i cracked mi nails... sobsob... pain... very... n i scored very bad... how ever, it was realli fun... thenz kakeru left... actually we were going to liying house to count down but mi n fel decided to go to the esplanade... the fireworks there is beautiful... very beatiful.. like it.. enjoyed too.. the place was realli crowded... totally suffocating... but worth experiencing though...

this was how i spend my last dae of 2005... was quite interesting n fu... realli enjoyed though... may my wishes come true in 2006... thats all... nitez!

heaving a sigh of relieve

2005-09-21T20:32:00.000+08:00

Hey to all... I am back to writing again... Thanks to all who visited my blog ^-^ !!! Have been busy recently because of the prelims n todae is the second last paper already... FINALLY!!! i can realli have a good sleep after days of pressure n stress... kind of sacrastic but is true... I am going to sleep for at least 12 hours tomolo... haha...
The entire exam was realli tough... i am realli worried that i might not be able to get into the jc i wan to for the first three months... HOW????? haiz... realli have no confidence in myself... not at all... Disheartened... How? can anione cheer mi up?????? AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stressed out... Dun wanna let my parents down at all... hope that i can at least score at least below 10 pts, but that is totally impossible... Totally screwed the whole thing!!!!
The most shocking thing was that one of my classmate juz got Dengue Fever... OMG... never realli thought that mosquitoes are realli that deadly... I realli hate them now... She is still in hospital and is not going to be discharged that soon because her platlet level is still low... I hope that she will get well soon and return to school as soon as possible...
I think that that will be all for today... think i will be writing soon to prevent any spiderwebs from forming on my blog again... haha... =)

sad... someone's leaving my life again

2005-07-25T15:55:00.000+08:00

Long long time never update my blog already... Lots of things happened... the 88th anniversary n many more... Prelims and o level's coming... Stressed out...

Feeling sad today... Someone is leaving soon... Cried but nth will help... Maybe i am of less significance to him but he is still someone that i have known for 4 years... I hate it when someone leaves me... Sad, real sad... It feels as if a part of me is gone, a part of a complete puzzle went missing... Sobbing... I admitted i was kind of bad to him. When he was sitting beside me, i did nth to help n showed him attitude... Haiz... really regretted... I remembered that he lied to me 4 very long... though upset n angry i didn blame him at all... he will be leaving in august... I dun want him to leave at all... he has been a very nice friend... really nice... will definately miss him... hope that he will remember me yar? Sorrie n thankyou... hope that we will keep in touch!

O levels is coming have to start preparing already... haha... mugging later... think thats all le... wait 4 my next entry lahz... c yer soon!!! :)

PheW!!!

2005-06-10T20:40:00.000+08:00

Haha... Finally no more remedia le!!! haha... relief... phew... however, all is not over yet!!! Still have a lot of homework... Ahz, dun noe when thenz finished lohz... haiz... how i wish no homework... O levels are round the corner le... no more fooling around already.. really have to work towards my goals n for a better future... Scared becoz that i am not afraid... mixed feeling in me... feel like sleeping until i am satisfied... Sleep until i feel like waking up... haha... laming around...

Todae went to pei qi house... had a big feast yar... haha... terry ignored mi... sad.. haha.. jk lahz had fun there... ate a lot lohz...fat le... opz... haha... saw her sis n her bf before we left... the ice cream was delicious lehz... yum yum... especially the chocolate flavour... haha.. almost wanted second serving... cannot lahz...

Tiring day lehz... cant wait to sleep... haha... ok lahz.. i tink thats all le lahz... this is how i passed my lovely day.. How bout u? haha...

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wierd!!!

2005-05-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

Todae went to plaza Singapura with kit yeng n zhee yeng... Had quite a fun time with them yar? Walked until mi legs were soft... Haha.. Zhee yeng had her drum lesson at PS n we went to see her... Her teacher was so pro lohz... She was also veri pro... Si mo si yang... envy her talent sia... PS changed a lot since i've been there like one year ago... Haha... todae is mi sis bdae n i bought her a bookmark... i bought one 4 miself also...
the wierd thing happened to mi was that i got trapped by the security system... The thing rang n i was detained!!! i was so frightened at that time... i tot that they will send mi to the police!!! A lot of ppl was looking at mi... lucky i managed to pass the security system... Realli heaved a sigh of relieve!!! totalli frightened!!! i guessed that it was because of mi hp thenz will cause the security system to go off!!! haha...

~~~ H a P p Y B d A E T o L u C i N d A ~~~

lights... camera... action!!!

2005-05-25T16:48:00.000+08:00

haha... Now in yigong house... filiming sth... becoming an actress soon yar? victor, fel, kit yeng is here also... haha... doing this for ptc... yigong realli looks like a director lehz... scary... so serious!!! when we laugh, victor also laugh...haha... so solemn... haha... wanna laugh but muz force miself not to laugh... victor kept pronoucing the word apprentice wrongly... everyone wan to bash him up yar? he looks scary... all black.. haha... fun though... last year already, hoping that we have sth to remember... yigong realli put in a lot of effort!!! wow... he hopes that this production will be the best of all of his 4 years in nhss... maybe he realli can consider being a director in the near future... victor can also be an actor in the future yeah... hk most popular actor!!! haha... fel can be an actress also... haha... kit yeng good helper also... haha... tink everyone had a gd time...

bdae ... sad...

2005-05-06T21:07:00.000+08:00

Listening to: tong hua + watching the mtv

Soooo touched by the mtv... oh mi gosh, the gal died in the end... nice song too!!! there is also a flash version but not as touching but nice too...

Recently happened sth scary... Sth happened when i was on the bus... totally disgusted by wat happened... Dun wan to take bus animore!!! nvm... trying to 4 get...

Exams next week n i have not started on ani revision!!! die le lahz... have to start, n muz be fast!!! so cham... 5 mor dae to mi bdae n it is on an exam... haiz... no celebration 4 mi... no presents 4 mi... who remember lohz? haiz... sad... dun tink anione will remember it... maybe onli little ppl ba... Kind of envy ppl whose bdae is on normal daes... at least got time to celebrate n ppl somehow will remember yar? haiz... lonely bdae this year wif the books to accompany mi... Sad... every year the same de... no fair!!! haiz... nvm lahz...

i think thats all 4 this entry... next week will be another entry... haha... sooo long finalli updated le hohz... c yer next time... ^_^

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haiz

2005-03-24T22:09:00.000+08:00

Xing Fu De shun Jian

Dang qiu tian, zai lai de shi hou
Ni yao wo, xiao zhe qu ai qu yong you
Jiu suan shi, zai duan zan de wen rou
Neng chong feng, zhe ren ci yi zu gou
Dou zhi dao, you xie she you xie ren
Ting liu zai, fa sheng de na tian bu ken zou
Kan shi guang de can ku
She bu de bei yi wang
Zhe ming yun wo hen man zu
You ni pei ban de xing fu

Wei ni da kai shi jian de suo
Rang ai zi you bu bei ta shu fu
Shi ku guo ye zheng zha guo xin rang tong nian guo
Deng na yi tian, luo ye jing jing piao yan qian
Yi bu zai shang bei
Yong heng zhong yu xiang xin le xing fu de shun jian

Wei ni da kai shi jian de suo
Rang ai zi you bu bei ta shu fu
Mei yi miao, dou bu hou hui
Wo pei ni ti hui
Guo qu wei lai, qing qing zhong die
Qing yuan liang tian tian de yan lei
Gan xie jin sheng yu ni zai, xing fu de shun jian
Yi wei

Its a tiring week this week... even though there is nth much happening... On monday, i had guzheng... On tuesdae, i had the etiquette course... haha, we learnt how to make up n take care of our skin... Ming min was the model of the day... Poor ting!!! after that i had my piano lesson... my eyes can barely open!!! on wed, i had guzheng practice... teacher said that we improved... kind of happy!!! thursdae, which is todae... went to jp with mi parents... tomolo... good fridae... good dae to slack!!!=P
Dearest pq,
Dun sad le lahz.... try to 4 get bad things n remember good things... cheer up k? u seem so troubled n stress... sorrie 4 going offline juz now while toking to u half way... mi com broke down!!! sorrie...=)... stop frowning le lahz... later got wrinkles thenz u noe!!!
Dearest fel,
haha... N2 hohz... lucky still have u to be entu... Lets keep this spirit up k? jia you... =P
haha... last but not least,
Hey victor,
Thankz 4 tagging mi blog!!! =) haha... u r a responsible cleaniness leader hohz... First time our class get A lehz... haha... Muz keep up the good work hohz... next week muz get an A also!!! =)

The song xing fu de shun jian is so nice lohz... still cannot get it out of my head... still remember the story... Beautiful story, but quite sad ending... omg... i still have the show in my mind... Although this song is like 3 years ago n the show also but i still love it... love everything abt it... haha... =P i think thats all 4 todae le...=)

2005-03-20T15:33:00.000+08:00

Starting my blog again... This time i've decided to have an entry every week... Starting to clear the spiderwebs n the thick layer of dust... this song on my blog is nice hohz? I love it a lot!!! the lyris is so beautiful n the story behind it is so touching!!! I cried while watching it... the gal died in the end... Haiz... many things have happened recently... Hard to explained... I seemed to be quiet recently... Dun noe why... Juz dun feel like talking... Having odd feelings recently...
To My Dearest PeiQi:
Sorry 4 not being around whenever u needed mi... I've been a bad friend recently n hope that u won't mind... Sorry 4 not able to help u in some problems that u faced... Seeing that u seemed stress recently... Dun stress up too much k? take thing easily... I will always be there if u need ani help k?
To my dearest fel:
haha... Wat funnie dreams u have... Dun u ever worry lahz... I will never ignore u lahz... May be sometimes got attitude probs but i will never do tat de... Take care n dun stress yerself too much k?
To My dearest Jenny:
Saw u cry at gz tat dae... Didn't console u... sorrie... dun worrie lahz... if we work harder, we will sure be able to get a gold de!!! Jia you hohz... wipe off yer tears... look towards yer goal; our goal...!!! Jia you!!!
To all Gu Zheng members:
Lets work hard k? lets put our differences aside first k? we must aim towards our goal... GOLD 4 syf!!! we can do it de if we all work hard... when we get a gold, lets cheer as loud as we could k? Cry together ok?haha... Jia You!!!
haha... first entry of 2005... kind of long... to myself? haha i have to work hard this year to reach my own goal!!! waiting 4 my prince charming also... haha... wondering now when will i meet him or wat will he look like... Wats his name... haha daydreaming again!!! nvm... i believe tat one dae he will find mi n i will find him!!! i think thats all 4 todae... Ppl, work hard n aim 4 your goal!!! c yer next week!!!

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2004-11-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

Yoz ppl, so long no update mi blog le... Dusty already...
Yesterdae, pq, mi n fel went to watch the fogottened... An interesting n meaningful movie... I got scared few times!!! haha... Fel cried lehz!!! haha a muz watch movie...
Nothing much happened lately... though it had been quite tiring due to cca n extra lessons. I havn realli started my holidae homework n mi room is still in a mess... Slacking everyday, eating, watching tv n sleeping... becoming a pig soon... haha... I watched the princess diries 2 wif mi sis too... a nice n touching movie... i cried... The guy,sir nicholas, was so shuai... totally caught mi attention... haha...
i think this entry cleaned the dust n the spiderwebs already.. I think thats all le... Hope u all will have a nice weekend!!!

exams are over!!!

2004-11-02T22:21:00.000+08:00

The exams are finally over already!!! Happy... But also feel down... I am afraid of the result... O level chinese... haiz... realli afraid that i will not be allowed to take higher chinese ani more... How?

Haha... realli love the song Jie Kou!!! listening to it over n over again...love the lyrics, love the feeling... May be some things are not meant to be forgotten ba... haha... Dun care le... put it one side.. Hope that time will heal... I feel like watching movie but lazy to go out lehz.. haha... sometimes feel sianz... Mi juz started playing a pokemon game... Mi sis introduce mi to play one.... though lame, but kind of fun too...

The entire 2 weeks will be packed withmany activities n lessons... Exhausted already... haha going to sleep le... nitez!

failure mi...

2004-10-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

Feeling blue recently... Realli upset abt mi results... Wanna give up le... How? I flunk almost everything... See others n then look at myself... I AM A FAILURE!!! haiz... juz got scolding frm mi parents, nagging non stop... Mi realli headache already... Feel like ging up on miself le... how can i score well in my o levels if i can't even pass mi normal school exam? Is ITE for mi? Haiz... I realli hope tat mi o level results will not be so bad... I realli scared... How?

O level chinese coming le... But i dun have the mood to study... Totally giving up on miself already.. even i can feel tat mi parents are realli disappointed abt mi results... I realli let them down... Sorrie.. Wat to do, i am juz so useless!!! i am lost already... wat to do? Where to go? anione can tell mi?

I realli feel like sleeping, hoping not to wake up... Becoz i believe tat onli in my dreams, i can have the results i wan... the future i hope for and if i am not please wif my dream, i can wake up n say tat it is onli a dream...

I am realli sad... Feeling VERI bad... i can feel tat mi parents are sad... I DUN WANT!!! everytime i talk to them, i can feel n i realli wanna cry... But i force miself not to becoz i am a brave gal!!! But i feel very bad... sometimes realli cannot control my few drops of tears... Too many tings happened in such a shot time... Breathless... Sad... Disappointed... Fustrated... Speechless...

lost and empty...

2004-10-15T21:46:00.000+08:00

So long no entry le... haha... Exams wat!!! haiz... worried!!!! i am realli afraid on getting mi results... Afraid that i will fail... Haiz... Nvm, i had tried mi best le.....

Todae was the last paper le... haha... happi... Mi, felicia n peiqi went to orchard... Pei Qi spend the most todae(haha... bought sth special 4 someone hohz =P) haha... todae mi n fel also did sth painful... we went to pierce a ear hole!!! haha... veri pain lehz!!! ouch... i almost cried... now still pain!!! i veri scraed got infection lehz... Painful... Ouch... We bought sth nice at taka also... Haha, bring to school soon... haha!!!!!!!!

Sianz... realli veri bored!!! i dun noe wat to do lehz... Feel so empty suddenly.... haha...

I tink tat's all already ba... Wish u all good luck n get good grades!!!

straightening my hair...

2004-09-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

Yoz, todae was fun!!! Mi, Fel n pq straightened our hair!!! Todae, after school, we went to pq's house to 'rebond' our hair!! Haha... Fel was the first one... it realli stink lohz... Pq's room was full of that smell!!! It realli smelled like ammonia... stink!!! (my hair still stink lohz) It was kind of pai seh becoz her grandma was at home... It was realli disgusting lohz!!! smelly... smell still in mi nose!!! We had to wash our hair... Fel was all drenched becoz of that lohz... can see everything!!! haha!!! realli had lots of fun sia!!!
todae i almost fell asleep in class... haha... i slept at 1 am yesterdae!!! tired... haha... seem to mi that there is a reading trend recently lehz... even BingRong also started reading lohz... Miracle lehz...haha... I tink that's all le... Nitez ppl!!! sweetest dreams.... ^_^!!

Tiring Dae...

2004-09-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

Had a tiring dae todae... Totally exhausted by the intensive training... It was supposed to be a co camp 4 us one... But in the end, it became an intensive training camp... My fingers are having blisters already!!! Painful but i think it is quite ok after all... But i feel tat i have wasted a dae of my holidae becoz of tha camp!!! I havn do mi homework yet... havn studied 4 the tests!!! I think i am going to die le lahz!!!
At least i love letting myself tire out... By doing so... i may 4 get somethings... But i wanna ask myself, is this call avoiding the matter? I realli dun noe... Maybe i should not think so much at all... am juz thinking too much and maybe too complicated already!!! Haiz... Silly me!
Ohya... by the way... Happi bdae to our dearest Ah Toot!!! =)

blah,blah,blah...

2004-09-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

Todae was a boring dae again... Had a talk in school... Got progress report too... Quite ok lahz but still can do better one... Feeling a little better todae but i do not think that it will be completely healed... the scar will still be there 4 eva... todae played basketball too... Had lots of fun...
I am realli speechless already.. Nth to say... I have learnt sth valuable frm this incident... No guy is worth my tears because the one that is meant for mi will never make mi cry! I think that time will heal mi ba... lucky 4 mi, i am not alone... I have a group of friends to guide mi away from darkness and bring mi to happiness... love them a lot!!! Though sometimes we may have small quarrels but in the end, we still resolved it peacefully... haha... i realli hope that our friendships will last as long as possible...
pq*fel*jenny*mi

2004-09-03T22:53:00.000+08:00

Feeling Blue recently, many things happened realli fast... Breathless and speechless... No one will understand I think... I feel so heavy suddenly... Todae i had mi piano exam... totally screwed it... Fail already... Sad... I feel so useless all of a sudden, ppl always do better then mi. Question which i asked miself; Am i realli a useless person? always at the back? Speechless all of a sudden... Two songs which can describe mi feeling: an jing n ge qian... Sad and confused, feeling bad these dae... nth much to say all of a sudden... wanna run away frm reality...
Life is like a fairy tale, always have a happy ending... But this made mi wonder, will my ending be a happy one? Able to get wat i want? Will the prince and the princess lived happily evea after? though u all may think that i am pessimistic, but life is like tat i reality isn't it?
Maybe i am juz thinking too much, i still have a long way to go and no one knows what will happen in the end, but i am feeling realli tired already... realli feel like giving up... ... ...

muddle head me...

2004-09-01T12:55:00.000+08:00

Firstly, i wanna thank pei qi for helping mi in creating mi blog... haha... muakz.... It is realli hard 4 mi to create a blog as i am not good in computer stuffs, realli giving mi a bad headache!!! Its been days since i updated mi blog.. 4 now, i am trying to add a text board 4 all of mi readers n friends to post their thoughts...

Now, lets not talk abt this le... life's been tough 4 mi... i feel so tired all of a suddn... speechless though... maybe sometimes i am trying to avoid some probs... i realli feel helpless sometimes...

As what someone told mi, somethings are hard to be put down... still bleeding in mi heart ba... although ppl often say time can heal, but to mi somethings in life can never be healed... haha... tats all for todae i think, do visit mi blog often k?

first timer...

2004-08-20T23:04:00.000+08:00

first time doing a blog!!! i noe tat it maybe simple but i will try to improve on it... =)
haha...
listening to qi li xiang! nice!!! roxxxxxxxx!!!
haha... exams are juz all over! haha, but still have to work hard for end of year!!!
tat's all 4 now, i will try to improve, i hope tat i can...!
=)